To Wait or not to Wait

I still haven't gotten my period yet after the m/c, my midwife says she advises waiting 2 cycles before trying to conceive again, although she said it is up to us what we want to do. The only study I can find on it says their is no need to wait and the study showed that conceiving wihin 6 months of a miscarriage gives you better odds to go on and have a healthy pregnancy when you get pregnant again. A friend who also had a m/c at the same time said her doctor said she can try again whenever she wants. It has been 5 weeks since the miscarriage and I am fairly certain I have not ovulated yet, so if we wait 2 cycles that is a long time. Plus our midwife takes off the month of February so in about 4 months we will have to take a month off from trying because we dont want a different midwife, also it is not ideal to have a spring baby because the husband works super long hours in the spring and often 7 days a week. I am not sure if we will try to avoid trying for a spring baby or not this year.  A healthy baby is of course the most important thing, however since we are still young and not too worried yet about not being able to have a baby we can be a little more picky if we want to be. It would be awesome to have a fall baby because the husband has all winter off and gets up super early anyways so would be a lot easier for me with a newborn and being able to take naps

I guess only time will tell how long it will take.

Ironic or just really bad statistics?

We told one other couple we were pregnant and only because she told us she was, we are not even that close with them but wanted to share because she did and was only 7 weeks. Anyways, we e-mailed them about 4 days after we miscarried (this was only about a week from when we originally told them) to tell them since we were going to their Christmas party the next night. She e-mailed back and said she miscarried too. As it turns out we miscarried at almost the same time. She was 7 weeks and I was 10. We both have miscarried naturally, and hopefully we both will not have to get anything else done (my levels haven't gone back to 0 yet). Even more ironically the one blog where the person was one week ahead of me,  miscarried at almost the same time (10 weeks one week before me). I read about 5-10 blogs regular on the bump, most are still trying and a couple are in their 2nd or third trimester. They say the miscarriage rate in the first trimester is 15-25 percent.

I am hopefully the miscarriage was just bad luck/statistics and next time will go better. However, I know I am going to be scared at least the whole first trimester. Also, I am already thinking about every little thing and symptom wondering could this mean their is something wrong with me? Because this happens during my cycle dies this mean their is something wrong? Is this what caused miscarriage? I think I will just have to have faith that it will all work out. And even if for some reason we had trouble, their is always adoption which I am not opposed to.

only so much luck

Just this weekend I was thinking about how lucky we are- good health, house, successful, not that both my husband and I haven't had past struggles because we def have- however, in this point in our life I felt pretty lucky and still do, however sometimes I feel like maybe if you have too much good luck something bad will eventually happen and it did yesterday. Not that I feel unlucky, even though we suffered a miscarriage yesterday after 9 weeks of pregnancy, I still feel lucky. We are healthy, we have some many blessings. We got pregnant without really trying, so I am hopeful that next time we will have a successful pregnancy. We didn't tell anyone we were pregnant except my doctor, dentist, and one not too close friend of my husbands that just told us she was pregnant so we decided to tellwher now I completely regret telling her because we are supposed to go to a party there this weekend and now I def don't want to go. I guess it is easier to not deal with sympathy. I don't want sympathy or people feeling sorry for us. I just want to move on for it. However, now I feel that I will be very fearful of miscarriage if I get pregnant again. I don't even know if I want to get pregnant again right away or not, our original plan was to try to conceive in January or after and we just happened to not be that careful and get pregnant, we were really excited about it starting buying baby stuff and all that. I am 25 so still young enough to wait if I want to, maybe get back in good running shape again. But then there is the part of me that wants to get pregnant again right away because we were so excited about having a baby and because until I get pregnant again I will keep on fearing miscarriage until we do have a successful pregnancy.