only so much luck

Just this weekend I was thinking about how lucky we are- good health, house, successful, not that both my husband and I haven't had past struggles because we def have- however, in this point in our life I felt pretty lucky and still do, however sometimes I feel like maybe if you have too much good luck something bad will eventually happen and it did yesterday. Not that I feel unlucky, even though we suffered a miscarriage yesterday after 9 weeks of pregnancy, I still feel lucky. We are healthy, we have some many blessings. We got pregnant without really trying, so I am hopeful that next time we will have a successful pregnancy. We didn't tell anyone we were pregnant except my doctor, dentist, and one not too close friend of my husbands that just told us she was pregnant so we decided to tellwher now I completely regret telling her because we are supposed to go to a party there this weekend and now I def don't want to go. I guess it is easier to not deal with sympathy. I don't want sympathy or people feeling sorry for us. I just want to move on for it. However, now I feel that I will be very fearful of miscarriage if I get pregnant again. I don't even know if I want to get pregnant again right away or not, our original plan was to try to conceive in January or after and we just happened to not be that careful and get pregnant, we were really excited about it starting buying baby stuff and all that. I am 25 so still young enough to wait if I want to, maybe get back in good running shape again. But then there is the part of me that wants to get pregnant again right away because we were so excited about having a baby and because until I get pregnant again I will keep on fearing miscarriage until we do have a successful pregnancy.